a slow morning and procrastinating work leads to a lot of thinking. i’m pretty sure i haven’t been the greatest friend lately, to a lot of people. i’ve been blessed with some really awesome people in my life, friends i honestly never really thought i’d be fortunate enough to have, and i need to get back to treating them as such.
“A good relationship is when two people accept each other’s past, support each other’s present, and love each other enough to encourage each other’s future. So don’t rush love. Find a partner who encourages you to grow, who won’t cling to you, who will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. This is what true love is all about.”—(via loveofwine)
i want to be in love - lasting, forever, unconditional, best friend, let’s get married kind of love. i’m ready for that type of relationship, whenever the Lord decides to send it my way. and i’m tired of giving people permission to think that they can treat me or give me anything less, so that ends now.
"unconditional. unconditionally. i will love you, unconditionally." so, Father, whenever you think he’s ready, whomever he may be, i’m ready too.
“It seems to me that the years between eighteen and twenty-eight are the hardest, psychologically. It’s then you realize this is make or break, you no longer have the excuse of youth, and it is time to become an adult – but you are not ready.”—Helen Mirren In the Frame: My Life in Words and Pictures (via suhos)
Me. He texted ME at the end of the night tonight (oh, and all night last night too). Don’t know exactly what it means, but I do know one thing for certain - when I’m with him, he’s not texting you by the end of the night. Just saying.
well. if this weekend doesn’t help boost my self confidence, nothing will. i think i really like one of the things that happened and the person it happened with, so i’m hoping to see something positive come from it. guess only time will tell..
you must not know ‘bout me, you must not know ‘bout me. i will have another you by tomorrow, so don’t you ever for a second get to thinkin’ you’re irreplaceable.
so since i’m not your everything, how about i’ll be nothing, nothing at all to you.
i wanted you bad, i’m so through with that. ‘cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing i never had. you turned out to be the best thing i never had. and i’m gon’ always be the best thing you never had…oh yeah, i bet it sucks to be you right now.
basically. you’re gonna regret it. just ask t, m, l, or z, for a few examples…each has told me (for some, over a year later) that they regret it, that they wish things had ended differently or not at all. but lucky for me, you’re not irreplaceable, and someone who wants to give me what i deserve will come along. you missed out on the best thing you could ever have and i’m sorry for you. all i ever wanted was to be friends, and now after everything i’m not even sure we can do that right now.
“If they respect you, respect them. If they disrespect you, still respect them. Do not allow the actions of others to decrease your good manners, because you represent yourself, not others.”—Mohammad Zeyara (via natashakills)
i really want it to be right. i really want it to be easy. but i’m just afraid that it’s not, that i made the right decision in january and now i’m back-tracking, only to end up hurting someone again in the end.
i am just not good at saying “no” to people. it makes me feel bad, it makes me feel as if i’m disappointing them, and it makes me feel as if they’re not going to want me again. even those these are irrational feelings, and feelings i place upon myself rather than any person ever really having made me feel this way (other than one or two i can think of whom i didn’t really need in my life anyway), i can’t help it. i just hate it.
but tonight. i’m sticking to my guns. i’m still tired. and it’s just cause you’re 4 beers in that you’re talking like this. so i’m not getting sucked in. not when there’s something else that could potentially be messed up by my giving in. i’m not gonna feel guilty for saying no to something that’s not good for me, for whatever reason.
“Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your wellbeing a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful — you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.”—Daniell Koepke (via creatingaquietmind)
I firmly believe in small gestures: pay for their coffee, hold the door for strangers, over tip, smile or try to be kind even when you don’t feel like it, pay compliments, chase the kid’s runaway ball down the sidewalk and throw it back to him, try to be larger than you are— particularly when it’s difficult. People do notice, people appreciate. I appreciate it when it’s done to (for) me. Small gestures can be an effort, or actually go against our grain (“I’m not a big one for paying compliments…”), but the irony is that almost every time you make them, you feel better about yourself. For a moment life suddenly feels lighter, a bit more Gene Kelly dancing in the rain.
“The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you places you shouldn’t be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending. And that’s not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, and you go into the unknown. And once you do, you can never go back.”—(via thelovewhisperer)
“I’m never gonna wait that extra twenty minutes to text you back, and I’m never gonna play hard to get when I know your life has been hard enough already. When we all know everyone’s life has been hard enough already, it’s hard to watch the game we make of love, like everyone’s playing checkers with their scars, saying checkmate whenever they get out without a broken heart.”—Andrea Gibson (via thatkindofwoman)
“The best kind of people are the ones that come into your life, and make you see the sun where you once saw clouds. The people that believe in you so much, you start to believe in you too. The people that love you, simply for being you. The once in a lifetime kind of people.”—Unknown (via somecallmecac)